Friday, October 31, 2008

FIRE

First of all, i very HATE people saying me zhong4 se4 qing1 you3. Damn angry when got people saying tat to me. They never think b4 saying anything and try to recall the things happened. Like i treat them very bad or not good at all.
Every BEST friend i sure got different ways of celebrate their birthday with them. If everyone the same then ma very sien. Right ? U all no need to give comment on and compare how i celebrate birthday for others. U should compare things i did for u when ur birthday compare to things ur other friends did to u and remember it.
The purpose i create this blog is to fa1 xie4 my feelings. So, anything i post or write no need to inform and get permission from any of u. Dont view my blog if u beh song when viewing it !
I share things happened at my life here, i won't like some of u , doing things silently cz scared ppl know it because i wen4 xin1 wu2 kui4. When i good with male friends, u all said me GAY, help me spread it until whole world know. When i good with female friends, u all said me zhong4 se4 qing1 you3, help me do free promotion. What things u all wan ?! Never think properly b4 u all saying anything.
Do u all dare to say how good u all treat me ? Very good because making whole world thought i m GAY ? Good because keep saying me or suan me ? Not bad because of not trusting me ? OK because dont dare to admit or put the real name when leave msg at my chat box in blog ?
U dont have qualifications to say me !!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Happy Birthday Yee Sin


Hey girl, 19th years old already !
wish you Happy Birthday !
All the best and good luck in everything ! ^@^


I prepared this supper and bring it for her to celebrate her birthday.

Hope she will like this homemade YSBM (Yee Sin Birthday Meal).

YSBM :

1) A chicken burger with cheese.No spicy and no vegetables.

2) Four nuggets with words "Happy Birthday" on them.

3) A dessert

I burned my fingers, very pain. =.="

But it is ok as long as she happy...

Friday, October 24, 2008

未知数

21/10/2008: 5点早上就被妈妈叫醒了,今天我要跟妹妹随着 YES video 的 Mr.Tan 一家人到关丹去探望我的爸爸。下午2点时我们终于抵达了目的地。 应我的要求,Mr.Tan 先带我和妹妹去探望爸爸。由于我已经至少四年没来关丹了,所以很多路已经不会走了。经过一般折腾,我们终于找到了关丹的政府医院。
带着妹妹,步入病房的脚步是沉重的心里则是不安的,那短短的路顿时变得很漫长。终于、终于,到了、到了,也看到了躺在病床上的爸爸。他,跟我在8月31日时看到的他已经完全不一样了。爸爸那消瘦以及苍白的脸,因肝脏无法操作而肿胀的身体以及不能动的双手,看了令我好担心。听姑姑说,爸爸已经3天没有挣开眼睛了因为轻微中风。我跟妹妹试着跟他讲话,但是他完全没有反应,只能听到他嘴里一直念着我跟弟弟的电话号码。妹妹哭了,我强忍着眼中的泪水在那边安慰着她。不能哭、不能垮,因为我还要照顾妹妹。在这个时候,爸爸终于挣开了双眼,我心里顿时也安心许多。但是,爸爸说的话非常不清楚,我们很难明白他在说什么。
逗留了大概2个小时,我跟妹妹随着Mr.Tan 一家人去 hotel check-in 。其实Mr.Tan 一家人这次来关丹的主要目的是旅行,他会答应带我跟妹妹一起来是因为我妈妈的苦苦请求。梳洗以及吃晚餐过后,我们又去医院探望爸爸。待了大约1小时,Mr.Tan 就带着我们去探望他的亲戚。在一个陌生的环境、陌生的人群里,我和妹妹只好静静地在那边等。过后,我们去了Eastcoast Mall 。那里的设计蛮高尚的,也很美,可惜我忘了带camera。我看中了一双nike的鞋以及一些衣服,但是没买,因为要省钱。Lol... 晚上10点,回到了hotel。也许是太累了吧,不用一会儿我跟妹妹就睡了,原本的恐惧感已经被抛到九层云霄外。
22/10/2008: 在回家之前,我们又去了一趟医院探望爸爸。在回程中,接到了chee li, ing thynn 以及 teck horng 打来的电话。他们的问候让我很高兴,也有点感动。坐了9个小时的车,我跟妹妹终于回到家了。非常谢谢Mr.Tan一家人,因为他们的假期几乎被我跟妹妹搞砸了。

未来我爸爸的病情会怎样真的是一个未知数,只有一句话想说:“May God bless him !

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Happy 19th Birthday Chen !


HappY BirtHday to U ,
HapPy biRthday To u ,
happy birthday to zhi chen ,
HaPpy BirThDaY to U...
Hey, 19th years old liao. Haha...
All the best and good luck in ur love, studies, family, friendship... !!
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY !


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

孤独的心

朋友,我有很多。好朋友,我也有不少。但是真心的朋友、能够谈心的朋友又有几个呢!?在夜深人静的晚上,望着那无际的夜空,人也显得特别脆弱。孤独总是在这个时候侵蚀我的心,我不喜欢这种空虚的感觉。曾几何时,有那么一位好朋友会在这个时候跟我聊天、谈心。那个时候的我真的开朗许多。我还天真地以为我遇上了真心的朋友,没想到.... 但现在我知道这一切的一切已成为过去,现在的我必须独自勇敢地面对所有的事情。
不会有人愿意花出他们"宝贵"的时间、金钱、精神只为一个朋友,因为人是自私的就算你对她/他再好,她/他也不一定会为你付出,除非你是异性的朋友。人多数都注重在爱情多于友情,我也不知道为什么。“朋友可有可无,但是爱情不能少!”应该就是他们的座右铭吧。哈哈...
孤单的感觉并不好受。当你想找个朋友来聊聊天的时候,你真的不知道可以找谁。当你遇到困难时想找个人一起来分忧,你也不知道可以找谁。当你快乐的时候想找人跟你分享喜悦,你也一样不知道可以找谁。也许唯一的解决方法就是赶快去睡觉,迎接新的一天吧!

迷上了它

最近,我迷上了1首歌,一天几乎会听至少10次吧。我也不知道为什么...就是喜欢它的旋律、喜欢它歌词背后的意义、喜欢那美妙的钢琴声以及喜欢听了这首歌过后的感觉。希望你们会喜欢,周杰伦的“稻香”。

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Everything ending soon

12/05/2007: I HATE this date the most as this is the day i registered for form 6. My dad promised me to send me for A-level course at INTI college, but at last he broke his promise. I am so sad and disappointed.

13/05/2007-17/10/2008: The first 3 months is a hard time for me as i still cant accept the reality. I dont like the atmosphere at school, dont like the classmate, dont like everything. I lost 5kg through those 3 months without keep fit. Haha... But everything getting better and better after that.

18/10/2008: Time flies, my form 6 life goin to end soon. It's only 1 month left from the exact STPM exam date. I am so scared ! Wish me luck for STPM ! =)


I spent AT LEAST 240 hours or 10 full days tuition form 6 physics at this place. Geng leh. =.="

Everyone will sure like the form 6 scholarship RM1210, so do for me. Getting back this bank book made me realised that i had used up the money. Electric bill, water bill, internet bill, reference book, food catering.... were paid by using the money and it helps me a lot, appreciate it. Everything is going to end soon...

form 6 scholarship bank book

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

迟来的勇气

06/10/2008 (12.03am):
我也不知道自己哪里来的勇气,send 了封sms给她。内容是:“I like u !她reply:“R u joking ? ”我问下去,才知道原来她很早已经知道,只是她怕是她自己误会,所以没说。我才发觉到原来她还记得我为她做的事情,很不可思议!但是我知道我跟她已经不可能了,因为她刚跟别人seng了,所以我也没抱着任何希望。最后她的reply:“U r a good guy. But me... sorry !” 也许我应该早一点行动,或许会有机会。哈哈...不管怎样,我还是会珍惜现在与她之间的感情。 ^@^

Friday, October 10, 2008

手心 或 手背 ?

完整、快乐的家对很多人而言并不是一个梦,但是对我以及弟弟妹妹来说已经是个永远都不可能实现的梦吧!真的很怀念小时候跟父母在一起的时候。
生日当天,收到了一封爸爸传来的祝福简讯,很感动。近来几个月,爸爸几乎每天都在进出医院,健康状态越来越差,令我很心痛。本以为十月一日可以去探望爸爸的,没想到最后妈妈改变主意,只让弟弟去看他。原本我真的要跟妈妈吵反了,只是想了过后觉得她这样做一定有她的苦衷,所以也就算了。其实,我的妈妈为了我以及弟弟妹妹牺牲了很多。当年,她与爸爸分居后,爸爸不要也不曾给过她任何的赡养费。妈妈一个人在KL过着有一餐,没两餐的日子,很辛苦。那时的我根本什么事都不懂。haiz.... 爸爸在没有了工作后丢下我以及弟弟妹妹走掉,也是我妈妈跑回来照顾我们的。
外面的闲言闲语真的很多,外人总是在没有真正地了解当下的情况以及事情的来龙去脉前乱下定论、批评。言语是很伤人的,那些人为何总有那么多看法、意见却又未曾伸出援手呢?!
爸爸也是对我很好的。还记得我小时候,他不只整天忙着工作,还要忙着载我去补习。当我忘记带东西去学校时,他还特地送去学校给我。放假时,还常带我们一家人去旅行。虽然表面上我还是埋怨他无法让我到INTI College去读A-level,但是我其实已经放开了。
在手心与手背之间,我不知道要听谁的,我真的不会选择,因为爸爸妈妈对我而言真的太重要了,我不想失去任何一个。我知道我很多时候都是嘴硬,但是其实我的心是软的。对他们,我心里只有无限的感激。只想对爸爸妈妈说:“我永远都爱你们! 愿爸爸早日康复!=)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Happy Birthday Da Ping !

07/10/2008
Happy 19th Birthday Da Ping !
May all your wishes come true !
All the best and good luck in everything !
Hope our friendship will last forever !


Friday, October 3, 2008

十九岁的生日,永远的感动~

19th 的生日对我来说应该是最劳师动众的一次吧, 也是我最开心的一次。非常感谢为我做了这么多东西的你们以及你们的祝福。谢谢你们...

Special thanks to: ( i arranged in descending order)

1)siew may:我很清楚的知道你为我做了很多东西,而且很多事情都是你一手包办的,只是你没有说出来。虽然我生日的时候你并不在,但是你的祝福对我来说已经超越了一切。所有的感动以及回忆我都会铭记于心。衷心地谢谢你!

2)jerry: You really make me so surprise and touch. I don't know where u get the cake as 1st october all shops seem closed because of hari raya. Thank you very much dude ! I appreciate it very much...

3)da ping: 你也做了很多东西对吧?只是你也没有说出来。帮忙策划、帮忙收集comment、帮siew may准备。你都静静地做。我是知道的,我全收在心里了。Lol...非常感谢你!=>

4)zhi chen: 你应该会说你并没有做任何东西吧。哈哈...其实也对,you dont even remember my birthday. Lol... 无论如何,我还是要谢谢你,常听我发牢骚、给我劝告+ ..... (我知道你也有做一些东西的。hehe..)也许朋友对你来说并不算什么,但是我想告诉你我珍惜你这个好朋友。


5)chiao pei: 你亲手做的生日卡,存满了你的心意以及心思。我知道你花了很长的时间做的,我会好好的收藏起来。(i know u at jerteh when my birthday,but u sure got ur reason rite?)我可以谅解的。Thank you so much ! ^^

6)chi yin: 我收到你寄来的卡片以及书签了,非常精致。你一定花了很多心思以及时间吧。你不要再说你的礼物不值钱了+没有人要之类的话了。因为你的心意对我来说已经是无价之宝了。谢谢你!

7)min cheer: U sacrifice a lot of ur time because of my birthday. I know u helped in many things. Organize something is not that easy right ? Thanks for ur concern, ur advice and everything u did !

8)pei shang: U are really quite annoying leh, haha.... dont so siao lar u (joking only). Anyway, thanks a lot for ur cake. I know it's ur 一番心意。I think u love chocolate cake right ? because u ate so much.Wakaka... Thank you a lot !

9)sin jiang: U are the only who wish me via phone every year birthday. Although it is just a simple phone call, it means a lot for me. Really appreciate it ! thank you...

Thanks to qiao rou, yun huan, teck yang, whay chiat, chee li, ah kam, jing xiang, su ting, zhong yi, heng yan, chung sang, jia ming, suan yean, shyue xian, ah bak, eng hui, hui chin, wei lun, yee sin, ing thynn, mia yang, teck horng, chee wei, pei fang, kai xiang, siew ping, yu yang, hong hwa, kee chien, yue phing, Zean (Ns), John (Ns)....... (sorry if i miss anyone) Thanks for ur wish and everything u did ! ^^

Conclusion:其实,很多事情我都知道、看到、感觉得到。我选择了沉默因为我把它们都收进心里了。为朋友庆祝生日也许不是一件非常难的事,但是有多少人愿意这么做呢?有多少人会有这个心意、心思呢?我常跟你们(especially my best friends)讨生日礼物是因为我想知道自己在你们心中的地位。其实,礼物对我来说并不是一切,你们给我的友情已经是我最好最好的生日礼物了。真的非常珍惜、感激你们为我所做的一切!Thank you so much !

19th birthday celebration

This year my 19th birthday celebration is really a wonderful one. Thanks a lot to my frens..

27/09/2008 (7.00pm) : They celebrate my birthday earlier for me together with da ping and kam as one of my best friend, siew may will not be around on my birthday. We had a BBQ party. All food are sponsored by Da Ping, must thanks him. Tat's a great BBQ party...
I am so tired that day and i got sore throat the next day as i talk too much. XD



BBQ-ing food. I like the chicken, fishballs and corn the most..





Ah kam with her 19th birthday cake.







Da ping cutting his birthday cake.







My 19th 1st birthday cake bought by my dear friends.



Me with cream on my face =.=
They fool me ...



Group
picture of that party. A total of 17 people...


02/10/2008 (12.00am) : I went out with my best friend jerry. But when i start saying i want to go back since 11.00pm, he seems like try to delay my time. It's already around 12.00am when i reach my house. He said he want to go my house, i said ok and asked him if my mom asked me why he so late le still come my house.He bring out a cake from behind of his car and said :"Tell her that i want to celebrate ur birthday with u. " Wah, i am so.... Thanks dude.



2nd 19th birthday cake bought by jerry





Me and Jerry ( we are straight ) Haha...




02/10/2008 (7.30pm) : I invited my best friends to have a dinner at restaurant. The dinner might be much better if siew may is around. I am so pai sei when i want to order meal. I asked the boss if the shop selling any pork ? His response so big and say NO. =.=" I am frighten by him. Pei shang bought me a chocolate cake nuh, thanks a lot ya. Thanks a lot my best friends too as they wasted their time with me. Hope they like the dinner. Lol...

My 3rd 19th birthday cake bought by pei shang (luckily not fruit cake again. =D) Someone might love this cake so much as they ate 1/4 of the cake. Lol...



My best friends and i. Love them !! XD





My 19th birthday present (a wallet, a birthday card and an album)
Like them very much...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

最好的朋友?

大多数的人都注重爱情多过友情,但是对我而言,友情比爱情重要。因为我相信爱情并不能永久,但是友情可以是一辈子的。说实话,朋友,尤其是好朋友在我的生命中扮演着很重要的角色。如果说家人是我的左手,那么好朋友就是我的右手,缺一不可。
怎样才能算是我的好朋友呢?是那些对我很不错的朋友?还是那些我把他们当成好朋友,但是他们却把我当成不懂什么东西的朋友?我也不清楚了...

当你处在人生中最无助时,本以为那“最好的右手”会帮你,但没想到“他”反而使你伤得更重....

对你好,并不是理所当然的,是因为我真的把你当成我最好的朋友。我知道我是心甘情愿的,但是我也有自尊心。我知道如今我这个朋友对你来说,多一个并不多,少一个你更高兴,因为如今你已经有更多更好的朋友了。不是吗?你当不当我是好朋友,相不相信我,觉不觉得我是gay,觉不觉得我很烦已经不重要了。我也不怨任何人。只是我很失望、伤心、可惜这么多年来最好的好朋友如今这样对我、看我..... 我们还是最好的朋友?